Apparently this snow wiped out my school. They haven’t had any heat/water since yesterday, classes are cancelled tomorrow, and they told all the students to evacuate if they can. So glad I live at home. I just hope this isn’t foreshadowing what the rest of this winter is going to look like.
I’m going off on a bit of a tangent here and deviating from my regularly scheduled posts, feel free to keep scrolling, but this is important to me. If you want to be a part of this check out Drop A Love Bomb or click the pic at the bottom.
I know where you’re at mentally, and I know how much it sucks. I know it, because I’ve been there too. It’s hard to want to keep it all together, to keep up appearances, when all you want to do is stop. When all you want to do is curl up and sleep for days. To get in the car and drive somewhere you’ve never been to. To keep driving until you run out of gas.
You’re better than that. You’re stronger and more determined than that. You have too much to offer to the world to do that. You’ve already accomplished so much, why waste it?
This isn’t going to get better over night. You won’t wake up tomorrow forgetting everything that’s hurt you. But it will get better. It might not happen today, but it will happen. You need to have faith and start learning how to love yourself the way so many people love you.
I love you.
I know I’m not always around, but that doesn’t mean I ever stop caring. I might not be able to answer every phone call, or respond to every text, but I hope you know that doesn’t mean I’m intentionally ignoring you. I know sometimes I can be cold, or snarky, or bitchy, or whatever fun little adjective you want to throw in there, but that’s just me being a dumb hoe. I need to work on that.
Remember that I love you and that I’m always here to listen, even if:
- you’re walking home drunk and just want someone to slur to
- you’re crying and I can’t understand you
- you see someone we went to high school with and you don’t know if they remember you so you’re going to pretend to not remember them unless they say something first
- you’re stuck in traffic
- any other reason you ever want or need to talk to me and/or you accidentally pocket dial me
I’m always here. I love you.
I would like very much to graduate yesterday…or at least not have to take spanish any more.
I just water-marbled my nails for the first time, and I think I’m in love. Pics to come, after I eat dinner.
I think I might say funnier things when I’m pretending to speak for my dogs, than when I’m actually speaking for myself….